Friday, September 11, 2015

My first thoughts about today.

"Perhaps time shouldnt heal all wounds?

As I sit and think of the terrible event I wonder one thing. Will they remember this day a hundred years from now? Will this just be a forgotten evil, to be repeated, or will we learn. Also to those countries and peoples that celebrated this horrible act, I know that I am glad I have not met some one like that. You should never feel good about killing, even if it's in the defense of your self and another. Taking a life is the lowest of the things a human can do.You should feel sorry for an enemy that attacks and you kill, even if you had no choice. That is a guilt that can not be forgotten, and sometimes I think never forgiven."

I still believe this, but have evolved it. 

Taking a life is never good, but one's own life and those we care for are worth dying for or killing for.

Wednesday, April 29, 2015

5 years sober.

Poof gone.
I haven't gotten drunk in over 5 years. I am not saying I haven't had a drink, but I truly have not been drunk in 5 years.

I have had my problems drinking, I spent 6 months downing Jack like it was water after work. It was the only way I could sleep while in the Air Force after awhile. Falling off the wagon is just part of having a drinking problem. Tonight though, I am just not caring.

Sadly I do not know why I fell off. I just started and have had more to drink tonight then I have in almost a decade. Now am I drinking to stupid levels? No. Heck a few drinks down most would consider a quiet evening, for me it is too much. Considering my size and time and such I can tell you my BAC is around .12 at least.

Thinking now hard about it it probably is the pain. My arthritis is acting up really bad. My cane has been used a lot recently. Add in the stress of Finals. Ergh and now I am remember work this weekend is going to be hell....yeah I think I know why I fell off the wagon.

Finally.....a true push cut.

Okay here is a test for you to see how sharp that EDC knife really is. Go find a newpaper, now with no movement of the blade in either backward or forward try and push at a complete 90 degree angle to the paper the blade straight down into the paper. If it did it congrats that is either very sharp or do me a favor and turn the paper 90 degrees and try it again. Oh I imagine some are going wait it did it now but not last time. Some are going it did it before but not now. Let me explain.

Cutting paper you must realize it has a grain and thus turning that paper and cutting across that grain requires a much higher level of sharpness then cutting along that grain. Thus turning the paper shows you two levels of sharpness. The sharpest consistent test is the across grain push cut at 90 degrees. No angle to the blade at all. All angles are 90 to each other. Doing this incredibly hard.

 I have been trying years to get this good. I finally have gotten my technique down and my tools properly set up to do this free hand. I have get a shaving sharp edge but a true across grain push cut on newsprint is very very hard. Now I can do this. Did I also mention I did this without using a leather strop. The only thing used was diamond and ceramic stones.

Now to find a harder test to try.

Monday, February 2, 2015


Well I have fallen off the wagon a few times since switching to the E-cigs. Mostly do to either dead batteries, or broken tanks. So I am happy to report I now have a Mini Protank with a stainless steel tank, no glass there to break. The down side is can't see when it needs refilling, and it is harder to refill a bit. I also got some more batteries and new flavors. Hopefully this will help me not fall off the wagon again.

Still I am happier to actually working to quit for good.

Monday, January 26, 2015


8:50PM clock into work.
7:12AM clock out of work.
9:00AM got to first class
10:15AM leave first class
5:30PM go to second class.
9:40PM leave second class.

Friday, January 23, 2015

The shift change....

It really is odd I spend half my week going to school during the day, and the other half working all night. So I have this day where I either sleep almost none before going to work, or staying up all night to try and shift my sleep schedule.

Most people would call this is.

Sadly I find it kinda liberating. I get to avoid a lot of things that most people have to deal with when doing errands or daily life. Like crowded stores are not an issue usually. I am heading out to shop when most people are sitting down to dinner or already in bed. The down sides are some stores are closed or closing soon. Also the weirdos are out when I am grocery shopping at the all night store I shop at most of the time.

Meth heads, those are the worst thing about having the odd schedule. It pretty much is the meth heads schedule except they do not sleep.....

So g'night folks.

Thursday, January 22, 2015

New Blade Dance! Spyderco Resilience

So considering I didn't have any full flat ground knives to play with I got a Spyderco Resilience. It is massive. In fact so much so that I kinda don't want to pull it out in public. It makes a Kershaw 1 ton look small, or the CRKT M-16 look dainty....

So some specs are easily available online so look them up.

The Pros:
Nice and sharp out of the box.(Push cuts news print at a 90 degree angle)
Decent steel for the money.
Nice pocket clip that holds well but not hard to draw.
Smooth action.
Solid lockup.
Handle scales provide firm traction.
Enough handle to choke up or down for various tasks.
Light for size.

The Cons:
Far to large for most people to EDC.
The edges of the handle scales are not rounded but simply cut off, so hard grips are not comfortable like some knives.
Liner lock is painful in a hard use grip.
Blade apex grind is a little uneven.
Apex grind is not all the way to the heel.

The Neutral:
Balance is about 1 inch down the handle from the pivot.
Four way positionable pocket clip.

So I give it a solid 7. Not quite as good as my favorite edc pocket folder, but it comes in second.

Friday, January 16, 2015

Yeah Winter inside storms.

I know it is winter do to the constant cries of "Ow fuck" from my Wife do to the constant static electrical shocks she receives all day. She is a one woman electrical storm.